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remember the porch days? • they are back. • ...also why did i ever think it was okay to pour a galloon of maple syrup on a mound of banana ice cream for breakfast. • i am highly self reflective border lining on overly analytical and a closet perfectionist. i can't count how many videos i haven't filmed because i am worried what i am wanting to say, won't come out the way i intend for it to when i sit down to film a video. this need for perfection in what i do has paralyzed me from creating for so much of my life. i care so much, and only want to give you guys the highest quality of content and creation possible. but more and more i am realizing that this illusive ideal of creativity and perfection cannot walk hand in hand. creativity is loud and unpredictable and spontaneous and unapologetic and messy and raw. if she had hair it would probably look the way mine does after running for 10 miles and then getting caught in a rain storm. she would be barefoot and probably sleep in a vw van whose radio only works on one station. stillness, for me, these past few months...has been crucial. it has allowed me to cultivate unwavering compassion and love for who i am. which i am still working on every single day, by the way. i still have days when self doubt surfaces, and insecurities consume. days when i binge. days when i pick apart my reflection staring back at me. days when i wonder if i am enough. these sabotaging patterns do not pack their bags, kiss you goodbye, and fly away overnight. healing is a long, long, journey. but i am on the road, taking it step by step. and this love is stronger than it ever has been up until this point in my life. i have never felt so at home inside myself. stillness has allowed me to heal wounds and release emotional baggage that have been buried inside of me since childhood. stillness has given me a taste of freedom so unimaginably beautiful, i lost all track of time as i drifted into the eternal embrace of pure presence. here and now. stillness has allowed me to find a family here who sees me. to unearth a home in humans. people who have taught me what it means to truly love, to truly live, and to truly be free. not giving a fuck what anyone thinks is the key to true freedom. it's really hard. like, really hard. i am still working on this. but through releasing fear regarding your own self expression in this world, a channel will be cleared through which you can be used as an instrument of love on this earth. you being you, allows others to be themselves. authenticity is the foundation through which fulfillment flourishes. be relentlessly passionate. fearlessly curious. choose to chase what makes you feel alive, and one day, you will wake up living. (if you are still reading this, hello. hope you have some tea or water or something delicious in your hand. thank you for caring this much. i fucking love you. i wanted to keep this video short for once hahaha so i am making up for that here i guess. but truly, there is so so so so so so so so much i want to share with you. so much i've learned, through change. through growth. it's all spilling out of me at 12:34 am and i think part of me is just super happy that i'm finally not limited by the constraints of instagram caption lengths.) • xx continued in the comments. (turns out there are youtube caption length limits. let's start a peaceful protest.) • my new custom lightroom presets: • https://creatorpresets.com/item/plant... • (compatible with adobe lightroom on your laptop or desktop computer. to those of you who have supported me in this endeavor so far, thank YOU. this literally came out of the blue and the response i received was overwhelmingly beautiful. you allowed me the ability to finally purchase a macbook pro, which is an action i've been meaning to take for such a long time but hadn't been in the position to be able to financially. this machine will be the foundation through which my creativity can flow freely again, completely unrestricted. i am so full of gratitude, it overflows. truly, thank you. i will be talking about my presets soon on this channel, but i just wanted to extend my appreciation for this, for you, here and now. ps: please keep tagging me on instagram #plantifulsoulpresets if you used them in your photos, i love seeing your creativity intertwine with my own. :) ) • buy my ebook here: https://gumroad.com/clairemichelle • all about veganism, nourishing food, self love, and happiness. • soundcloud: • / claire_michelle • instagram: • / plantifulsoul • snapchat: • plantifulsoul • camera: • Nikon D750 • Canon 70D • Sigma 18-35mm F1.8 Art Lens

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